C H E E K Y

And from my tired heart, a little bit farther away

Wed, 18 Jan 2006 18:22:03 GMT

<im in love im in love and i dont care who knowss it.

wow this year is absolutly nutso. its been a bundle of emotions that i cant even put into words. and now all this suspension/expelling shit. i dont really know what to say.

i dont think ive ever been more confused in the most calm manner in my lifetime. it makes sense to me. i have become so comfortable with change, i think its a good thing. and the greatest thing is happening Alex from Cali is coming down in 2 weeks. its exactly what i need.

You have my attention
Like you’ve had all the while
Since that first day when you made my heart smile
With loving eyes and tired sighs that flow
You have my attention
Like a shout through an empty sanctuary
Speak but a whisper

dont stop believing!

Sun, 08 Jan 2006 00:21:20 GMT

jordan says hii!
and paulina says hii too!!
me and jordan donnelly are now going out so much has changed and im so extremely happy im so in love its ridiculous
senior year is going by way so fast.
scared and happy holla.
i love kristen and her headaches and jon is the most amazing gentlemen in my life.
zac ensign well he is my lovely little lady =)
danielle guistino <3.
ok bye.
any way you want it thats the way you need it anyway you want it!

i didnt steal your boyfriend...

Mon, 07 Nov 2005 04:15:45 GMT

i've been feeling pretty alright lately.
it was a fun weekend && after having 2 weeks off of school

im not that excited for tomorrow but lets see: half day,
superlatives pics, and no school friday.
i shouldnt really complain.

tomorrow is james' 19th birthday um wtf.
sjhdfjksdfh.

I just dont understand how i had 6 shots last night && didnt even remotely get that crunnk. its a bit odd. is my body immune to alcohol?
hmm.

i dont need a guy in my life but it would be nice.
i guess i am too much to handle after all.

whatever best friends never leave your sidee...

letting go is my life, i'll be on my way.

Tue, 01 Nov 2005 07:06:21 GMT

OK. so my biggest want right now is to fuck my best friend. not because i have feelings for him but i wanna liberate him.
jon andress is the best best friend anyone can ask for i love him for everything he is && his short tempers && his laugh && his dimples he doesnt want anyone to see :) gosh im blessed :)

I wanna makeout with alex lameass.

Paulina is the best. She is who she is && we just need our monthly talks..kinda like a period =]
me, her && jamie are UNstoppable. we've been through so much.

i wish emily didnt change. shit happens. i love life so much.

LETS GET FUCKED UP AND DIE IM SPEAKING FIGURATIVELY OFCOURSE.

THERE ARE NO BETTER FRIENDSHIPS THEN THIS.

why cant we get along?

Fri, 21 Oct 2005 01:48:18 GMT

NOT NO ONE WANTS TO BE LET DOWN.

So you go from diapers to, playgrounds && swing sets, to mulch and yuckie bruises, coloring books && crayons, notes with circle yes/no, thinking ur cool with the shortest shorts in p.e, library was fun, naptime, pb && j with motts paper box juices, recess, christmas pagents, gross bushy eyebrows, frizzy hair, liking every boy in your class [which never really changes] tons of key chains, highschool, bitches && hoes, playas && nice guys, grades, stress, depression, happiness, drugs, sex, partying, trampolines and fallin in love.

you once have soemting then u fall and u get back up
everything changes and u learn and uve become
accepting of the change you HAVE to deal with.
in the matter of 1 month your whole life can completly
change.

and then you finally let your guard down and fall madly in love.

its hard to know that what you had and took advantage of was the best thing you'll ever come close to
&& the person you cant get out of your head and heart
says oh im sorry its just not right timing.
you realize how shitty it feels.
so yes karma is real
&& as jamie says "everything happens for a reason."

i know that i am in love and i didnt mean to but what can you do once someting good comes round god throws something in your face to fuck all ur shit up for why? who the fuck knows. im not really angry its just confusing. its ok though.

i just have the best friends in the world i mean better than i could have EVER asked or wished for. i miss being able to write and it felt like things were somewhat more relieving.

*so moms good
*me and dino are becoming realll close again
*i love my family
*i havent smoked in 2 months
*i tanned today

happy birthday to joey tomorrow. && homecoming next weekend. woohoo.
bye.

baby I shall not move Even after all the silly things you do.

Tue, 18 Oct 2005 04:44:59 GMT

Yes I need more time just to make things right

Damn my situation and the games I have to play,
With all the things caught in my mind.

same shit: drama, love, friends, cali, food :)
                things have been amazing/weird.
     i just got back from SAN FRAN, ahh a greaat great time i tell ya.
            joeys burrfday is on friday ahh im excited.
                jamielopez is a skeet :D
                    && yah parties this weekend fun fun fun..
i wanna get crunk.
no smoking though :) 2 months and im stayin clean.
LOVELIFE.

<3333 :)

I guess that you saw what nobody could see

Wed, 05 Oct 2005 02:57:40 GMT

a good ol weekend kicking back w/ great friends like alwayss.---although our relationship is bipolar the love is unconditionall.--

i am leaving for san francisco this friday for 2 weeks im so excited too see old friends and just shop and eat and party and my dance audition ahh too fun for words i tell ya.

sasha squared =]

GEEZ LOUISE!

we sleep to 10 'o clock on friday nights && love it.

AULLLLLL! HII HAPPY.

BEACHHHHHH TIMEEEEE...

..we go down together.

samsung&&barb.

oh youu..just the things you do their soo youu.

to the galleria..

missed youu pow pow, really did.

emmy is at rocket summer at the moment && im jealous && i do love youu em no matter wat ull always be mah sista.

heres to youuu....<3333.

wake me up when september ends.

Fri, 30 Sep 2005 03:47:11 GMT

* i miss michael clarke so much.
* i wish jon didnt go to bed so fucking early like a 5 yr old =]
* i love dance
* i thank god every night for Amanda Dolan.
*Matty just thinkin of youu r.i.p.

* WHERE IS UR HEART, CAUSE I DONT REALLY FEEL YOU. um ya w/e.

--this weekend is gonna be fun. sleepovers, beach, drunken nights, best friends, laughing && 1 month. :)

i wanna watch garden state.

so let go, just jump in..well whatcha waitin for?

Sun, 25 Sep 2005 16:42:58 GMT

                               the weather is changing..fall is here. =]
                                           im SO happy.
          things are going by pretty darn fast, joeys birthday is in 3 weeks, then homecoming, halloween horror nights, dance rehearsals..so much too look forward to.
For being grounded this was an Amazing weekend.
getting to know veronica is awesome && jamie && pow well duh their my life.
haha western day was funn..i hope vick had the best time in disney with keel.

enjoy.

so pow rep'd her hometown.

hiii happpy.

well best friends mean..

my little indian. :)

the love of my life.

oh god lauren!

gorgeous.

hey grumpyy =]

all in the family.

breakin tides, holler.

fire in the hole bitch.

i dont know much but i know i love you && that may be all i need to know.

Thu, 22 Sep 2005 04:05:19 GMT

                  So things are amazing or I can make it seem so.
                       Joey is just simply simply wonderful.
                            i am madly in love with my friends, laguna beach is amusing.
           PAU took me home long time no santi =]. fun fun fun.
                i made cookies ate all the dough..life is pretty much takin its course.

1. joey
2. pau
3. jamie
4. emily
5. dee
6. alex [cali]
7. cliff
8. mike
9. melissa
10. rios
11. vee
12. janet
13. jon
14. ally
15. justin
16. vicky
17. amanda dolan
18. mike clarke
19. zac
20.livolsi

How did you meet 13? honestly cant remember but started hanging cuz of emily.

What would you do if you never met 5? ahh shes my bester i just wouldnt laugh as much && have NO1 to have late night talks w/ && sleepovers. simply amazing chick.

What do you honestly think of 10? i think hes alot weird, a great friend, and has crazy hair.

Would or did 19 and 8 date? haha never would happen && theyd look weird together.

Have you ever liked 3? i makeout with her alot... or try to =]

If 1 died tomorrow, what is one thing that you would need him/her to know? that im in love with him && i have more faith in him than most, he is amazing and has taught me many things && he is a great boyfriend && is the reason i wake up in the morning...oh the many things i have to say =]

Would 2 and 11 make a good couple? haha hmm is they were lesbians fuck yaa.

Describe 7 in 3 words: short, heartbroken, sweet.

Do you think 12 is hot? gorgeous.

Would 1 and 17 make a lovely couple? hahah actually theyd be crazyy as fuck together! but hes mine =]

What do you think when you see 8? what advice is he gonna give me today?

Tell me something humiliating about 11. she cries about alot of things but thats not humiliating i do the same thing.

Do you know any of 3's family members? sue && ralph havent met max =[ heard bout vermont.

What's 20's favorite color? blue

On a scale of 1-10 how cute is 14? 9

What would you do if 4 just professed their undying love for you? um get freaked out then really excited =]

What language does 19 speak? english.

Who is 8 going out with? yessss melissaa =]

Is 9 a boy or a girl? gurrll

Would 18 and 4 make a good couple? haha no.

What grade is 17 in? senior

When was the last time you talked to 12? after school today.

What is 3's favorite band? hmm death cab 4 cutie..changes.

Does 1 have any siblings? ya a sister

Would you ever date 6? um its a girl!

Would you ever date 7? nope nope nope.

Is 15 single? hell no hes madly in love =]

What is 19s last name? ensign

What is 5's middle name? marie

What is 10's fantasy? hahhah jesus christ i have no idea. something weird.

Would 14 and 19 make a good couple? fucccck no hahah.

What school does 16 go to? minee

What school does 1 go to? mine :)

Where does 9 live? shenendoah near meee

Would you make out with 13? hehe been there done that.

Are 5 and 6 best friends? nope but they shared an amazing summer in they keys.

Is 2 older than you? yaa that crazy mexicana

Is 17 the sexiest bitch alive? AHH HELL YAA GURL ID LICK THAT BITCH ANYDAY =] =] =]

life is just too damn short.

Tue, 20 Sep 2005 01:25:04 GMT

i love && care about joey so fuckin much and i dont care if all he ever knew was sex, money && running his shit. i wanna be there for him till ...

i really dont understand what the fuck my parents want from me.,

so im the laziest fucking person EVR && yes i kno i can be soo much more. im quitting smoking i really want to. i want to get my shit together but honestly i have no fucking clue where i fit, where im going, im too fucking lazy to look for colleges, infact i think im SCARED SHITLESS to actually move out of my comfort zone && goin into the real world.

i guess i just i have to realize my mom will never accept me for who i am or even understand me. its ok. i love my aunt shes my hero. so here i go put on my happy face && say fuck the world i guess sometimes we all need to be a little selfish.

i love paulina so much im glad we are actually talkin and im not being such a cold hearted bitch to her. im a fucking idiot i hurt the people who care about me most. im over that. i love jamie so much we can relate on our dramatic mood swings. i dont kno what id do without you. =]

so i gues right now im going through alot of change or hopes of changing. goddammit i love joey. and mike hes so fucking awesome, like a great friend. i love the people i am with now i feel happy && comfortable.

all i know is.. i love life even if i come home to a psycho bitch from hell and leave with a few bruises but on ur happy face cause life is too damn short.

r.i.p matty.

p.s. jon andress i love you more than life thank you for coming over and succh. i owe you. bestfriend fo eva hahaha. =]

SOUNDS LIKE A FIRE TRUCK.

Fri, 16 Sep 2005 14:03:17 GMT

How to Eat Pussy
*or Everything You Need to Know About Cunnilingus But You Were Too Busy Picking the Hairs Out of Your Teeth to Ask

Eating pussy can be one of the most wonderful things you can do for a woman (or so I read on the cover of Cosmo). It makes her feel appreciated, respected, desirable, and has the potential to give her an orgasm that will shatter glass, raise the dead, even wake you in the next room. Besides, lots of women expect it these days, and men who perform great oral sex are always in demand. If you gain a reputation as an expert, many classy, attractive women, way out of your league, may overlook your other shortcomings. Just kidding, but it gives us an excuse to talk more about vaginas.

The vagina is a mystery to most men. It's hidden away. Taken out only for special occasions and then quickly put back into hiding. Like an english muffin, its full of nooks and crannies and tastes best slathered in melted butter. For something so complex you'd think there would be instructions, or a map, or a help icon. How many times have you planted your face at heaven's door and said to yourself, "Man, it sure would be nice if just once she told me what she liked? Should I feel free to move about the cabin or should I keep my seatbelt securely fastened and concentrate on her love button? Should I move up and down? Back and forth? In little circles? Dive in deep or doggy paddle on the surface? To finger or not?"

Men have no problem telling women what they like, "Oh yeah! That's it! Oops, sorry baby. It's OK, it's protein." There is no mystery about a penis. It stands out in the open. Proud. Happy to be out in the breeze. No matter how small or unimpressive, every penis acts as if it's a Great Dane, the Washington Monument, or a mighty Sequoia. A penis is so simple in comparison to a vagina that I can explain everything you need to know about performing oral sex on a penis using a standard fire hydrant.
It's all good!!!

If a woman is still unsure, she can rent an adult video. Any video. All she has to do is look at a penis the way the "actresses" in porn do, and he'll be happy.

I know what you're thinking, "I'll just rent a video and learn all about eating pussy. I don't have to read a bunch of words." Wrong. Forget for a minute that as soon as you pop the DVD into the player, your left hand will instinctually grab the remote and find the fast-forward button while your right hand locates your mule and begins the old "up and down." You can't learn how to eat a pussy from a video because of your big old head.
Here's a picture of me, sharing my technique with Meryl Streep. Informative? Taking notes? You could watch me give Ms. Streep several orgasms (and I did) and you wouldn't learn jack. All you'd do is waste lotion and a few million sperm. How can I be sure that a 10 time Best Actress Award nominee wasn't faking it? That's a story for another time.

Even when porn movies show oral sex in close-up labia-vision-3D, they have to push the licker's head sideways to give a good view to the camera, while snapping the receiver's hip out of joint. This position is designed for good cinema, not for optimal pleasure.

Practice, Practice, Practice - Pussy Eating Exercises

One of the key differences between performing oral favors on a woman versus a man is time. With men, the better you are, the shorter your performance. With women, you're expected to be able to perform for extended periods of time. In order to develop marathoner-like endurance, there are a number of exercises that can be used to strengthen the muscles in your mouth.

What does this lesbian have that you don't? I'm not talking about the beautiful girlfriend or the impressive breasts. Look closer!

See those bruises on her tongue?
This girl has been busy.

Exercise 1
Stick your tongue as far out of your mouth as possible, and then try to touch your nose. Eat a booger, if possible. Repeat in 3 sets of 10 reps or when boogers are clear. This exercise is fun, funny to watch, and nutritious. It also makes a great decongestant.

Exercise 2
With a loose jaw, point your tongue while simultaneously trying to keep your tongue in constant contact with the top and bottom of your mouth. You'll quickly learn that this is impossible. A Zen-like exercise designed to equip you mentally for failing again and again to satisfy your lover.

Exercise 3
Keep your tongue relaxed and open your mouth. Move your tongue in and out of your mouth, forward, and in both directions, while licking hair from her hair brush. Try to focus while clearing the hairs. Practice in five sets of twenty and build up to adding aromas and darkness to the exercise.

Here I am after only 3 weeks of working out. No more bruises and I lost 20 pounds.

Get Licking!

Now that your tongue is in shape it's time to start licking. Lick everything you can get your tongue on and are legally allowed to touch. Be sure to invest in a big hunk of filleted salmon. I know what your saying, "Salmon is like $12 a pound, can't I use a lollypop or a nice piece of dried cod?" When it comes to training for licking labia, you can't skimp! Save the dried cod for her post-menopausal years.
Now, that's a nice piece of fish, tastefully shaped to promote interest, and garnished with parsley to simulate the texture of her 10 o'clock shadow.

for once i can touch what my heart used to dream of <3.

Tue, 13 Sep 2005 02:21:50 GMT

Despite everything..
i had the BEST MOST AMAZING TIME on saturday at night of joy.
it was just perfect..

BREAK TIME.

soo prettty.

yaa i spit water in his face =]

so all in all i had an amazing day slash night. thank youu.

..rest in peace matty..

life has a funny way of sneaking up on you.

Sun, 11 Sep 2005 20:16:10 GMT

Matty Hughes. Damn.
he made such an impact on like fucking everyone. he
was soooooo funny at any given moment he could make anyone
laugh. and that face he was sooo frickin adorable and
oh how he made my amanda happy. what an amazing summer
we spent and they shared love. and how he was a good friend
to joey. the two closest to me. and the saint davids days haha
when he called in a bomb threat and then ran across the street
and made it sooo fricking obvious it was him lmao hahha.
moron. i love life. and his was tough and these past couple
months shit was good. he lived it up. im soo lucky to have known
matt hughes. its not gonna be easy to move on without someone
so awesome but we're all in this together. takeiteasy baby
&& ill come join you in heaven when my time comes =].
<3333333. REST IN PEACE.

you wreck me baby.

Fri, 09 Sep 2005 03:50:58 GMT

The Random Question Meme!

An array of completely random questions about my friends!

What would your life be like if you had never met andressurmom?: WOW. i wouldnt be ANYWHERE near the person i am now.
one of the best things that ever happened to me =]
Will nudistsgetnaked ever amount to anything?: fuckk ya my gurl is upp in tally gettin ur edu. on.
What was sarray182 wearing, the last time you noticed?: um a denim mini skirt and a tank top. =]
What is brain_on_drugs's sexiest feature?: hahahahah. umm.
his breathe.
Is just_the_girl__ a morning person or a night person?: um neither all she does is flipping sleep!
id say morning.
What is stale_bread's religion?: ??
What do _michi and _abysmal_dreams have in common?: music.
What habit does jodanlovesjayme have that you think they should give up?: being in love with me =]
How long have you known vi0lentserenity?: summmer going into freshman year =]
What do you think of faintofhearts__'s family?: LMFAO! SUE && RALPY. WELL WELL WELL...
sue is a crazy woman who is anal but soo loving and honestly the sweetest woman ive ever met, shes just a tincy bit over protective.
and ralph is laidback and just kinda smiles at everyone.

This is by heptadecagram. You can find your own completely random questions here.

Do you feel enlightened now?

im kind of a big deal.

Tue, 06 Sep 2005 23:36:06 GMT

Nessa said it best...

"PLEASE PRAY FOR MATT HUGHES HE NEEDS US THE MOST RIGHT NOW...HE WAS ONE OF US AND HE GREW UP WITH US AT MCCARTHY...SO EVEN THO YOU WERENT AS CLOSE TO HIM AS SOME OF US WERE...KEEP HIM IN YOUR PRAYERS AND HOPE FOR THE BEST FOR HIM...HES GOING THROUGH A TOUGH TIME IN HIS AND IN ANYONES LIFE RIGHT NOW AND ALL WE CAN DO IS HOPE THAT HE STAYS WITH US...HES BEEN THROUGH SOO MUCH...I LOVE YOU MATT!!!"

i love my boobs,amabear,and hubby im here for you Always.

hey jon, um thanks ur a cool kid and
ur kinda my labeled best friend =]

im falling in love with you, balloons or no balloons.

Mon, 05 Sep 2005 20:06:27 GMT

soo this weekend was simply fabulous.

CONGRATULATIONS to the Breaking Tides on their CD release
their awesome and im soo proud of you guys. =]

im happy, fat, have amazing friends, and i Love my boyfriend.

the most amazing couple =]

Happy && Pumpernickel.

cheeekks anddd booobs. BE OPTIMISTIC.

tequilla ranch <3.

i love my bester. DEE <3.

i love getting woken up by my lover.

peace nukkas.

theres no crying in baseball.

Sun, 04 Sep 2005 23:32:01 GMT

ahhh amazingg weekend soo farr. now im getting ready to get crazy with my favorite whores vick&&amanda =]. friends = love.

i just lovee these boys.

best person in the world.

deeeee <3.

hubby && wife.

"your a good girl and thats what makes me love ya"

yah nick avila makes me smille.

ya im a lard ass next to him WATEVER. =]

jamiepoo&&zanee.

i love my sideways boobs. peace.

to be continuedd ....

the chemistry between us could destroy this placee.

Fri, 02 Sep 2005 21:48:43 GMT

i love eating BK && sleeping with DEE on friday afternoons =]
i love jon andress more than you.
&& i love my boyfriend.

3 day weekend holler... =]

i wanna carry you around when your arthritis is bad.

Wed, 31 Aug 2005 03:09:01 GMT

i had a reall nice day--mario&&autumn--car ride w/ jon.-new camera--new car*--
it was realll nice to be with steph, kimmie && luna.

mix your milk with my coco puff milky milky coco mix ur mik with my coco puff milky milky righhhhhhhtt...

daniele brought me breakfasttt =] =] =] i love her like alot.

"people try to impress us so we dont make fun of them"

<333333333 autumn.

mariioo.

i love chris soo muchh. he gives me the best advice.

driving to school all by myself felt saagood hehe i love being a 5 year old =D

i love him && youu and i want him that makes me sad...awesome?

MAKE LOVE NOT WAR.

i neeeed some poon.

Sun, 28 Aug 2005 01:15:13 GMT

i love my famillyyy soooo much
i wish Justin was here though im like reall bored without that motherfucker =/
hes like my partner in crime =] luhh you boi.
im having a sleepover with my cuzz's tonite shiit we gonna tear it upp!

um i love spending time with jon && the twin.
yah their amazing.

paulina i hoppee u feel better i dont like u sick =/
jamie stop being cranky although u have no power and ur parents are fucking annoying i love u like no other hoe. =D

jordan is my best friend and he got a myspace hahahahahhaahhhaa life is saagood.

p.s. mario is amazing.

lara is sick too feel better dear, ill bring ur soup soon love =] smilllle.

I LOVE YOU.

..don't you'll ruin it.

Fri, 26 Aug 2005 02:00:16 GMT

let the rain fall i dont care

im yours and suddenly your mine :)

ill im askin u to do is let me hold youu.

Wed, 24 Aug 2005 00:06:58 GMT

yah im in love..cuz i aint never had nobody do me like youuu =D

..um mr. ruggie needs to die, okay awesome.

UM OKAY IM GONNA FUCKING KILL MY DAD. i hate himm he succkkkss hesss gayyyy i hope he ... get hit in the head...Hard.

okay im happy now. LIVE.LAUGH.LOVE <33333333.

"she thinks im hott nigggaaaaa." LMAO.

Sun, 21 Aug 2005 18:28:45 GMT

HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ahh only 2 of my favorite people...jamiee ur soo fucking cute, i <333 love youuuu.

poop on a stick.

Sat, 20 Aug 2005 03:38:56 GMT

danielle loves sasha.

and the rest of you suck.

=]